Sexy and I know it/ EOS 5

My End-of-Semester (EOS) 5 is in two days. 

Two. Days.

That's two and a half years spent in IMU accumulated in one exam. 

It's the last exam I'll ever take in IMU. 

It's the only obstacle standing between me and going to Liverpool.

Sigh.

I have the right to be melodramatic.

"Sexy and I know it."

That's the way I want to feel before I enter the exam hall: happy, positive, grateful that I've made it this far. 

Nothing short of a miracle, really. 

On a side note, I'm so grateful to have such amazing friends who keep me sane and grounded and positive despite the ginormous exam cloud hanging over everyone's heads. I just hope we all make it through. :)

Also, I'm so appreciative of how quickly my panic mode fades away. Thanks, God. 

The worse thing you can do now is panic. 

fact

I am not a nice person.

What's wrong with me?

one of those moments

 A song that totally depicts my life right now. 

I used to think
I had the answers to everything,
But now I know
Life doesn't always go my way, yeah...
Feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize...

[Chorus:]
I'm not a girl,
Not yet a woman.
All I need is time,
A moment that is mine,
While I'm in between.

[Verse 2]
I'm not a girl,
There is no need to protect me.
It's time that I
Learn to face up to this on my own.
I've seen so much more than you know now,
So don't tell me to shut my eyes.

[Chorus]

I'm not a girl,
But if you look at me closely,
You will see it my eyes.
This girl will always find
Her way.

I'm not a girl
(I'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe).
Not Yet a woman
(I'm just trying to find the woman in me, yeah).
All I need is time (All I need),
A moment that is mine (That is mine),
While I'm in between.

I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time (All I need),
A moment that is mine,
While I'm in between.

I'm not a girl,
Not yet a woman. 

There are days when I get this feeling deep inside the pit of my stomach.

It goes by many names: "Anguish", "Despair", "Self pity".  

Pick your poison.

I never used to feel this way so why now?

I can get so depressed about nothing really. 

I just feel.. so sad. 

The only odd thing is, this feeling only reveals itself when I'm alone. or have been alone for a long time.

I don't know if everyone's just been busy with life, but I feel like everyone's moving forward.

Moving on in life, with their responsibilities, tasks, assignments, examinations.

Then, I'm sitting there, wondering 'Where has everyone gone?'

I hope this is only temporary.. I hope it goes away.

I've lost count of the number of times I've gone to sleep with a sense of doom looming overhead.

It hasn't been occurred in a while.. but this dark gloomy pit feeling was quick to substitute.

I feel so alone. 

It's funny because it used to be that if I dwell on it, then it'll progress and the wound gets deeper. bloodier.

But now, the feeling just comes whenever it wants. 

We all wear masks, to hide the monstrous atrocities we hold within.

Okay, maybe monstrous is a little of an exaggeration.. but it's ugly. 

Definitely ugly, and painful. 

Oh so very painful.

2011 has been a year with nothing but new experiences, good and the bad.

And it's only just reached June. 

May was a bad month, 

please God, let June be a better one.

Amen.

serial acid splasher :s

KUALA LUMPUR: Police concerned ..serial acid splasher ..responsible for more than 20 attacks on women and children ..has begun to strike at night.

Friday, three women were attacked 30 minutes apart around 9pm

two women ..walking along Jalan Pudu Lama were splashed with acid by a man on a motorcycle leaving one of them with severe burns that almost blinded her left eye.

Half an hour later, another woman had acid splashed on her at a parking lot

Saturday, a woman and her year-old baby were attacked at their home in Persiaran Titiwangsa.

targeted women and children. . . attacks beginning to cause panic among city folks.

suspect is that he is of dark complexion and rides either a Honda EX5 or Yamaha motorcycle

What the heck? 

Great, there goes my only mode of transportation to the airport. -.-

Please God, let this idiot be caught soon. 

I like my face the way it is. Thanks.

My Day 1

1) I'm sorry encik, but I could hardly hear what you were saying, I just wrote the stuff I could hear. I hope you feel better soon, wherever you may be.

2) I really don't want to join your club. I never would have imagined that I someday might have to.

3) I'm sorry I never go out with you anymore but you should know, I'm always very touched when you do find me.

4) It hurts to go back. it's so easy to forget when you're away.

5) Do you or do you not like me?

6) I hope you don't go back. But I understand.

7) I wish you weren't suffering so. 

8) I'm envious of all of you, it breaks my heart knowing I'll never have that again. 

9) I'm sorry, I think you're a very nice person but you can be so annoying when you're trying to be funny. it's not funny.

10) I dread the day we have to part and go to our separate countries :'( you're the first person i think of when i'm bored or having trouble or want to go eat or just want to have a good laugh or a great time. you mean more to me then you're ever know. :)

TAYLOR SWIFT IN SINGAPORE!! anyone have tickets?

Am I an idiot or am I an idiot? -.-

I obviously heard about Taylor Swift's Speak Now tour being a WORLD tour but it NEVER occurred to me.
Those two words : "WORLD TOUR". Well, duh, the world involves Asian countries as well right? ASIA!!!!!!!!

TAYLOR SWIFT COMING TO ASIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OOOMAAAGAAAAAAAAAAAWD!!!!!
TAYLOR SWIFT IN ASIA!!!!!!

i'm such an idiot. Today, is December 30th 2010. -.- Tickets were sold out like last month -.- i'm am so annoyed with myself

There's this one guy selling tickets for $1100 Sing dollars. Oh my gawwwd.
That's like 3.3k in ringgits! Oh my gawddd. I wonder if anyone will buy it though. It's so expensive.

AAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!
The one singer, the one artist that I will actually shell out the agong heads in my wallet for!
AND I CAN'T SEE HER!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!

:-( I'm so sad now. It's kind of silly though. It's too bad I've been living under a rock, looking after my grandmum that it never occurred to me, that she's performing FIRST in Singapore. Imagine that, her headlining spectacularly-sure-to-be-amazingly-awesome tour KICKS OFF IN SINGAPORE!

SINGAPORE!!! WHICH IS SO BLOODY NEAR KL!! Aaaaaaaaahhhh!
If anyone knows where I can buy cheaper tickets compared to the bum I mentioned earlier, I will be thoroughly grateful. Sighs. Taylor Swift man.

TAYLOR FREAKING SWIFT.
argggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

If anyone is feeling really generous, feel free to buy tickets from this guy for me. You won't have to buy me any birthday presents or whatever presents for the rest of my life. Sighs.

Taylor Swift.

Please please anyone who knows where I can get some tickets, drop me a line pronto! Thanks :(

@#!#@!#!@!@%$^#^%$

I FREAKING HATE MOSQUITOES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Was bloody attacked by a family of them. Suffering from 3 ginormous bites on my right and like 4 on my right leg and 2 more on my left. OH. MY. GAWD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bring me back to KL man! Land of the polluted, hence no mossies.

GAAAAAAARADSRERGHHHHH!!