Day 6 pick up sticks

1) My family. 

I can't imagine people with no families or close relations. 

If they just died suddenly, no one would even miss them. 

No matter how close your friends are to you, your family won't let you down. 

Usually. 

Blood will always be thicker than water. 

Family is what you come home to.

2) The wonderful people in my life that i can call 'friends'. 

The ones that always know how to make me smile and laugh hysterically. 

The ones that I can share and just open with. 

The ones that I can cry with. 

I've been very blessed, in the sense, I've found some friends who have proven to stay through thick and thin, some who have really helped when the situation called for it,

 without question ,without judgement. 

And that's exactly what a friend is. 

I know of a few who will get out of bed and come to my aid in the middle of the night

these are the people that I would do exactly the same for. :')

3) My iphone. 

As materialistic as that sounds, yeah.. 

I freak out like crazy whenever my iphone goes nuts on me. literally. o.o

 like it's not even funny how stressed out I get, worried about my precious phone.

 lol it's not healthy but it's true.

4) God, church and my LG I guess. 

I honestly don't know where I would be today if God was not a part of my life's equation. 

Where I'll be, my state of mind, or sanity for that matter. 

My church, in eaglepoint puchong, the place I go to unwind after a week of life and stress and worries. I love listening to the sermons cause they're always really entertaining and I've never been bored by them.

 Surprisingly, I find myself looking forward to them and I go away learning something about God's Word. I noticed, if I haven't gone to church in a while like a couple of weeks like if I went back home or something, I tend to feel really sad and depressed. 

Kinda weird but true. 

My LG, where I laugh and joke and share with my wonderful IMU juniors and seniors. 

Always feels great after our LG sessions :) 

5) FOOD! 

One of the things that usually is running through my mind is 'what to eat later?'

 Haha I always bug my friends and ask them what I should eat for whatever meal of the day cause I'm always SO indecisive.

 And I feel sad when I eat something really gross and not worth the calories :P

Day 5 (actually more like day 234)

1) I'm afraid of relationships. 

It's always fun till it reaches the end and someone gets hurt, bad. 

I don't want to get hurt, or let the other person get hurt.

2) I'm afraid that that feeling will never go away or heal. or hurt any less in time. 

3) I'm afraid of being alone, be it in a foreign country or just in uni.

4) I'm afraid of horror movies and everything related to horror.

5) I'm afraid of getting into an accident and dying young. 

Maybe not so much on death, but more on hurting the people I'll leave behind.

6) I'm afraid that I'll find out that medicine might not be the course for me. 

Though I can't imagine myself doing anything else, it can't be this hard, with this many things to remember. 

I don't want to just pass but I don't think I can expect any more from myself. 

I should just be grateful with a pass.

Day 4: jump & fall?

1)   My salvation & my friends'

How many will enter the Kingdom of Heaven? 

How many won't?

Will I?

Whose up there already?

2)   God & His Word.

Like what does He want me to do?

What does He expect me to accomplish this year?

Am I currently doing what's pleasing in His eyes?

Yeah, I surprised myself.

But God's been on my mind a lot lately.

I think He's finally answering my prayers :) 

And for that, I'm thankful.

3)  Am I doing enough? Is this enough?

In terms of studying, as a second year medical student.

In terms of religion, as a good Christian.

In terms of family, as a good daughter.

In terms of life, as a good friend.

4)  If I'll ever find that someone that I can't live without.

If I'll ever have what my parents had.

 

5)  What should I eat later?  

Hmm.

6)  What would have happened if I won the election.

Would my life be any different?

Would I be happy?

Would I be able to achieve anything?

7)  You.

I don't know what to do about you.

Day 3 dance with Mr. Lee

I just realized I never completed my 10 Day Challenge. 

Okay, so where was I? 

Hm, Day 1's done, Day 2's done.. 

yep so here goes Day 3: 

:)

1) Be sweet and consistent. 

I like it when people remember something I mentioned like months ago and did something about it.

2) Humorous. 

You have to be funny otherwise, I really don't see us going anywhere.

3) Compassionate. 

Caring for others, as if they were his own, is a bonus.

4) Independence. 

I think guys who are really handy, like know how to fix cars or typical household appliances, really attractive.

5) Thoughtful. 

Always thinking of what's best, not just for himself, but others.

6) Mannered. 

Cursing for no apparent reason or being sarcastic or rude all the time, is a major turn off.

7) Loving.

 He should love his family as much as he loves me.

8) Talented? 

I think guys who can play the guitar or piano or even sing a little are really sexy. 

Day 2 pick up my shoe

1) when i crying, i prefer to be left alone instead of crowded by consoling people.

2) i hate it when people ask 'how are you?' because you get the feeling sometimes they don't really care. much like a bartender might ask a customer 'how's it going?'. they don't really care, they're just trying to make small talk. i don't like it.

3) i like to think i'm quite of a private person, so when i tell you something personal, i expect you to keep it that way.

4) i'm always very touched whenever a guy does something gentlemen-ly like offering to walk me to my car, to carry my stuff, to pick me up etc. i'm not used to it but i really enjoy it. you'll def get bonus points in my book.

5)  i feel shy and introverted in front of strangers, if i'm alone but outspoken and friendly if i'm with a group of my friends

6) i think love is overused, i think when someone's in a new relationship, they're infatuated, not inlove. love is something that takes time to grow and blossom between two people. it takes a lot to love someone, truly. (i'm so deep, i know)

7) despite being a Christian for so long, i've still never felt 'that moment' or 'that connection' with God. maybe i have, but i've never felt like God was really replying my prayers. i desperately want to have that connection, to be able to call God a friend, instead of someone you have to look to in a religion.

8) i can be sad, but when i'm with friends, i tend to completely forget about my troubles and worries, then i feel guilt afterwards. i hate that.

9) i would love to study or live in the states or uk. i always liked the idea of having Caucasian friends.

10) i'm very very touched when someone goes out of their way for me. bonus bonus points.

11) if you do something really horrible to me once, there's still a chance i'll forgive you, even if it takes me a long time to.


since it started flowing, i figured why not.

My Day 1

1) I'm sorry encik, but I could hardly hear what you were saying, I just wrote the stuff I could hear. I hope you feel better soon, wherever you may be.

2) I really don't want to join your club. I never would have imagined that I someday might have to.

3) I'm sorry I never go out with you anymore but you should know, I'm always very touched when you do find me.

4) It hurts to go back. it's so easy to forget when you're away.

5) Do you or do you not like me?

6) I hope you don't go back. But I understand.

7) I wish you weren't suffering so. 

8) I'm envious of all of you, it breaks my heart knowing I'll never have that again. 

9) I'm sorry, I think you're a very nice person but you can be so annoying when you're trying to be funny. it's not funny.

10) I dread the day we have to part and go to our separate countries :'( you're the first person i think of when i'm bored or having trouble or want to go eat or just want to have a good laugh or a great time. you mean more to me then you're ever know. :)

The 10 Day Challenge

My friend asked a bunch of us to do this post which is called 'The 10 Day Challenge.' It seemed like a interesting idea so I figured why not. It's perfect if you've run out of ideas to post stuff, other than stuff that happens in your daily life. So, go for it and let me know if you're doing it, then I'll read yours too.



Day one: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now. (dont have to specify who they are)

Day two: Nine things about yourself

Day three: Eight ways to win your heart

Day four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot

Day five: Six things you are afraid of

Day six: Five things you cant live without

Day seven: Four turn offs

Day eight: Three turn ons

Day nine: Two aspirations

Day ten: One confession