Day 2 pick up my shoe

1) when i crying, i prefer to be left alone instead of crowded by consoling people.

2) i hate it when people ask 'how are you?' because you get the feeling sometimes they don't really care. much like a bartender might ask a customer 'how's it going?'. they don't really care, they're just trying to make small talk. i don't like it.

3) i like to think i'm quite of a private person, so when i tell you something personal, i expect you to keep it that way.

4) i'm always very touched whenever a guy does something gentlemen-ly like offering to walk me to my car, to carry my stuff, to pick me up etc. i'm not used to it but i really enjoy it. you'll def get bonus points in my book.

5)  i feel shy and introverted in front of strangers, if i'm alone but outspoken and friendly if i'm with a group of my friends

6) i think love is overused, i think when someone's in a new relationship, they're infatuated, not inlove. love is something that takes time to grow and blossom between two people. it takes a lot to love someone, truly. (i'm so deep, i know)

7) despite being a Christian for so long, i've still never felt 'that moment' or 'that connection' with God. maybe i have, but i've never felt like God was really replying my prayers. i desperately want to have that connection, to be able to call God a friend, instead of someone you have to look to in a religion.

8) i can be sad, but when i'm with friends, i tend to completely forget about my troubles and worries, then i feel guilt afterwards. i hate that.

9) i would love to study or live in the states or uk. i always liked the idea of having Caucasian friends.

10) i'm very very touched when someone goes out of their way for me. bonus bonus points.

11) if you do something really horrible to me once, there's still a chance i'll forgive you, even if it takes me a long time to.


since it started flowing, i figured why not.

My Day 1

1) I'm sorry encik, but I could hardly hear what you were saying, I just wrote the stuff I could hear. I hope you feel better soon, wherever you may be.

2) I really don't want to join your club. I never would have imagined that I someday might have to.

3) I'm sorry I never go out with you anymore but you should know, I'm always very touched when you do find me.

4) It hurts to go back. it's so easy to forget when you're away.

5) Do you or do you not like me?

6) I hope you don't go back. But I understand.

7) I wish you weren't suffering so. 

8) I'm envious of all of you, it breaks my heart knowing I'll never have that again. 

9) I'm sorry, I think you're a very nice person but you can be so annoying when you're trying to be funny. it's not funny.

10) I dread the day we have to part and go to our separate countries :'( you're the first person i think of when i'm bored or having trouble or want to go eat or just want to have a good laugh or a great time. you mean more to me then you're ever know. :)

The 10 Day Challenge

My friend asked a bunch of us to do this post which is called 'The 10 Day Challenge.' It seemed like a interesting idea so I figured why not. It's perfect if you've run out of ideas to post stuff, other than stuff that happens in your daily life. So, go for it and let me know if you're doing it, then I'll read yours too.



Day one: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now. (dont have to specify who they are)

Day two: Nine things about yourself

Day three: Eight ways to win your heart

Day four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot

Day five: Six things you are afraid of

Day six: Five things you cant live without

Day seven: Four turn offs

Day eight: Three turn ons

Day nine: Two aspirations

Day ten: One confession

Clinic Visit to Cheras Baru

I think the clinic visits that IMU have, are really awesome. It never occurred to me how realistic medicine was, until today. You get several clinics like DBKL, Jinggang, Nilai, Dato Keramat and Cheras. My group were instructed to go to the Cheras Baru Clinic which happened to be the nearest. We got slightly lost halfway but thankfully, we managed to get to the right building. It was so small though. I felt a pang of sympathy for all the old patients who had to slowly climb up the steep steps to the top of the hill, to get to the clinic. There was another entrance where cars could enter but it was narrow and difficult to maneuverer.

I think it only hit me when an old man suddenly started conversing with me in Cantonese, while we were huddled outside the clinic, waiting for one of our group members. He was speaking quickly while pulling up his sleeve to show me this right arm. I was so stunned I couldn't speak at first, but I couldn't reply either as I only speak 3 languages, Cantonese not being one of them. It was after that when I realized that everything I had been studying was related to REAL life.

I mean, obviously, I know that medicine is about helping and treating people but because of the simulated patients that IMU has for all our clinical practice sessions, I sort of forgot the whole patient part. These were real people, with real illnesses and real symptoms. It was all so REAL.

Then, I felt terrified for a moment. Was I capable of taking their history? Was I qualified enough to even have the indecency to ask about a patient's condition?

Overall, it was a very good experience because I learnt lifelong lessons today. I learnt how to communicated with different people with different backgrounds, religions and races. I also realized how useful it was to be able to speak Mandarin fluently. I should definitely learn to converse in it fluently before I graduate. It's such an embarrassment to be a Chinese but not speak it, especially while studying abroad. People would definitely look to you if they need a translator and it's just really lame if you shake your head and say 'Sorry, I can't speak Mandarin.'

You know, my first patient was this middle aged woman who was lying down on a bed. Her left leg had a huge open wound where I could see blood and flesh. The nurses were changing the dressing. However, the woman only spoke Cantonese so she was telling Steph about what happened. According to her translations, she had been bitten by a mosquitoe and it got swollen a few days later. It got so bad, they had to operate on her leg. The most heart wrenching part of the day, was watching her face distort with pain as the nurses cleaned the wound and placed the gauze on it.

I felt such a yearning to help her but obviously, what could I do? I'm just a measly second year medical student which no qualifications whatsoever. It's really amazing, that few minutes made me really consider returning to Malaysia to work after I'm done with my studies. Just looking around the clinic which was overcrowded with people waiting for their turn, I just felt like helping them. There's no reason why someone should ever wait so long to get treated.

I just really felt like helping them, but I didn't know how.

Before we left, Kash had to take a picture. 

Off to Ampang's famous Yong Tau Foo 

 This was quite yummy though. Deep fried pork thingys

We ordered like 20+ cause we were hungry.

 No idea what this was. Some soup thingy with the same dumplings like thingys, just not in fried form.

Maybe it's a sarawakian thing but I didn't think it was that awesome

Our local photographer and guide. Haha

pray - JB

I just can't sleep tonight.
Knowing that things ain't right. - Justin Bieber


It has already been 15 days into the new year of 2011.
And things in uni are good. At least, now I feel like my lectures sort of feel more medical related.
In the beginning, in semester 1, we were learning about biochemistry, which is about as interesting as my toes.
We slaved through stuff like behavioral science which had stuff, what are the four types of memories? Or what is pain? It was torturous.
Let's not forget about pharmacodynamics and pharmackinetics, which I still have trouble understanding o.o
Community medicine was still not that bad, with stuff like how waste water was maintained in Malaysia and about maternal health etc.

BUT it still didn't feel medicine-ly enough. NOW, we're really doing stuff I feel like I can call myself a medical student. For instance, my last lecture on Friday was about the major arteries and veins in the upper limbs. The lecturer, Nilesh Kumar was good so it was a fairly okay lecture, though I did fall asleep a little in the beginning so I chewed gum.

Hm, so far this year, it doesn't feel any different. Pastor Jojo was talking about how we shouldn't be focusing on making it a great year, but a Godly one. Hmm, uni just ended with its second week. Life at the moment is good, typical university lifestyle.

Had the most interesting conversation with Pastor Tim the other night after LG. I'm still not used to a pastor, well, technically, head pastor, taking the time to hang out with the students in his church. And, he's a very busy man, I'm sure, what with his business and his ministry. I thoroughly enjoyed his humorous company and we all even went to mamak after at Steven's. The night was all laughter, well most of it at least. :) But it felt good. He gave me some really good advice which I'm praying will work.

So, so far, so good.