You might get hurt just a little bit

When you gonna let somebody in?

You might get hurt just a little bit

right next to you

One day when the sky is falling, 

I'll be standing right next to you,

right next to you.

who do you want to be standing, right next to you when the world finally ends?

Day 6 pick up sticks

1) My family. 

I can't imagine people with no families or close relations. 

If they just died suddenly, no one would even miss them. 

No matter how close your friends are to you, your family won't let you down. 

Usually. 

Blood will always be thicker than water. 

Family is what you come home to.

2) The wonderful people in my life that i can call 'friends'. 

The ones that always know how to make me smile and laugh hysterically. 

The ones that I can share and just open with. 

The ones that I can cry with. 

I've been very blessed, in the sense, I've found some friends who have proven to stay through thick and thin, some who have really helped when the situation called for it,

 without question ,without judgement. 

And that's exactly what a friend is. 

I know of a few who will get out of bed and come to my aid in the middle of the night

these are the people that I would do exactly the same for. :')

3) My iphone. 

As materialistic as that sounds, yeah.. 

I freak out like crazy whenever my iphone goes nuts on me. literally. o.o

 like it's not even funny how stressed out I get, worried about my precious phone.

 lol it's not healthy but it's true.

4) God, church and my LG I guess. 

I honestly don't know where I would be today if God was not a part of my life's equation. 

Where I'll be, my state of mind, or sanity for that matter. 

My church, in eaglepoint puchong, the place I go to unwind after a week of life and stress and worries. I love listening to the sermons cause they're always really entertaining and I've never been bored by them.

 Surprisingly, I find myself looking forward to them and I go away learning something about God's Word. I noticed, if I haven't gone to church in a while like a couple of weeks like if I went back home or something, I tend to feel really sad and depressed. 

Kinda weird but true. 

My LG, where I laugh and joke and share with my wonderful IMU juniors and seniors. 

Always feels great after our LG sessions :) 

5) FOOD! 

One of the things that usually is running through my mind is 'what to eat later?'

 Haha I always bug my friends and ask them what I should eat for whatever meal of the day cause I'm always SO indecisive.

 And I feel sad when I eat something really gross and not worth the calories :P

Day 5 (actually more like day 234)

1) I'm afraid of relationships. 

It's always fun till it reaches the end and someone gets hurt, bad. 

I don't want to get hurt, or let the other person get hurt.

2) I'm afraid that that feeling will never go away or heal. or hurt any less in time. 

3) I'm afraid of being alone, be it in a foreign country or just in uni.

4) I'm afraid of horror movies and everything related to horror.

5) I'm afraid of getting into an accident and dying young. 

Maybe not so much on death, but more on hurting the people I'll leave behind.

6) I'm afraid that I'll find out that medicine might not be the course for me. 

Though I can't imagine myself doing anything else, it can't be this hard, with this many things to remember. 

I don't want to just pass but I don't think I can expect any more from myself. 

I should just be grateful with a pass.

we were superheroes then

i think about the days when we were young & carefree

we never even bothered to ask who we are,

 or we should be,

we just existed, 

with no resistance,

we were superheroes then

Blessings - Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long we'd have faith to believe

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not our home
It's not our home

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

listen, there's my heart beat

Was reading this on another blog and thought it was so wonderfully written. 

It was written by a close friend. 

I thought it was too good not to share with someone else. :)

some things become but a distant memory
growing old and fading away
its
like raindrops on a roof
like a box that's out of juice

sometimes this world wears me down
i feel like some sad, sad little clown
going through the motions
drowning, in this vast, grey ocean
so

should i moan, cry
curl up on a coach and die?
no

look, there's the world at my feet
listen, there's my heart beat
stand up, hold my head high
and let its music lift me to the sky
forget
the world, let it go its way
because it's time, i had my own say
i pave my own tracks
whether it be hard joyous or slack

what i need is a push, a pull
to let my soul shine through
reminding me
that while i live and breathe
there is still so much i can achieve 

Hope you all have a great weekend. It's ending soon :(

study sandra STUDY!!!!

Psalms 136

For today's LG, we shared about Psalms 136. 

As a group activity, we wrote out our own version of Psalms 136 which is about being thankful to God for His many blessings. 

Here's what I came up with: 

(I copied the first verse for inspiration :))

Oh, give thanks unto Jehovah,
For He is good,
For He is loving kindness endureth forever. 

Oh, give thanks unto God,
For He hears my every cry,
And cares for my weary eyes. 

Oh, give thanks unto God,
For He is my strength when I am weak,
thought be it, I am His ever disobedient sheep.  

Oh, give thanks unto God,
For He always listens, always waits,
for me to unlock my steel-proof gates.  

Oh, give thanks unto God,
For He is always present, always around,
to bring back home those who need to be found.  

Oh, give thanks unto God,
For He is always near,
ready to catch every drop, every tear. 

I have this thing whereby I like to make things rhyme. :)

Think I just found a new hobby.

I love worshipping. It's such a fun time.
Was feeling a bit down before LG but, as always, felt much better afterwards.
Really glad I went :)
So looking forward to SNL tmrw night! Wooo!

ouchh.

The New Rules For Love, Sex & Dating

I have a ginormous exam coming up really really soon. 

(3 weeks! aaahh!! pray for me?)

But just before I leave this blog to slowly collect dust, 

excluding my weekly addition of a song of my choice, 

I want to encourage anyone who has a minute to spare, 

or rather, just drop what you're doing right now and listen! 

to go and listen to these 4 messages. 

It's by a church in Alpharetta, Georgia, called North Point Community Church. 

I don't know much about it except that my LG leader told me they're this new up and coming church that's doing wonderful things in the States. Sort of like touching many people, which is fantastic always. 

Anyway, during our last LG meeting, we heard the 4th part of this message, 

which is blatantly entitled "The New Rules For Love, Sex & Dating". 

Yeah, smart move right? 

The title is intriguing enough that you'll  actually be tempted to click on the link and listen to what it has to say about a topic that has lost so much meaning in today's society. 

Hence, we're faced with the severe consequences like divorces, scandals, affairs, suicides related to relationships.

I mean I'm not used to listening to American pastors speaking but this guy, is really something else. Not only does he help you understand more about sex and relationships, he also turns on the tiny lightbulb in your head, which makes you go "Ohh... WOW." 

That was exactly my response when I heard it. 

In other words, if I could, I would definitely love to drop by this church someday. 

It seems to have a lot of great speakers who make you think.

Look, don't take my word for it. Just have a listen. Then tell me what you think.

Cause the speaker makes some really interesting points. :)

I'm still halfway into the 1st message cause my internet failed me -.- 

So definitely going to finish listening to the rest like when I'm stressed out of my mind and can't decipher the cryptic words on my notes anymore. :) 

Pass it on if you found it helpful, cause I definitely did. 

God bless.

FACT

Seeking You as a precious jewel

Nothing like the oldies.

Still means so much, after all these years.

When I am down, You pick me up

When I am dry, You fill my cup,

You are my all in all.

You are my freedom, Jesus You're the reason

A beautiful song we sang during Lifegroup tonight.

Here In My Life - by Hillsongs

Where will I be without You here in my life?

I don't know what to do with a love like that

Thank You. 

You always know the words to say.

"Surely We Can Change"- David Crowder Band

And the problem is this
We were bought with a kiss
But the cheek still turned
Even when it wasn't hit

And I don't know
What to do with a love like that
And I don't know
How to be a love like that

When all the love in the world
Is right here among us
And hatred too
And so we must choose
What our hands will do

Where there is pain
Let there be grace
Where there is suffering
Bring serenity
For those afraid
Help them be brave
Where there is misery
Bring expectancy
And surely we can change
Surely we can change
Something

And the problem it seems
Is with you and me
Not the Love who came
To repair everything

Where there is pain
Let us bring grace
Where there is suffering
Bring serenity
For those afraid
Let us be brave
Where there is misery
Let us bring them relief
And surely we can change
Surely we can change
Oh surely we can change
Something

Oh, the world's about to change
The whole world's about to change

one of those moments

 A song that totally depicts my life right now. 

I used to think
I had the answers to everything,
But now I know
Life doesn't always go my way, yeah...
Feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize...

[Chorus:]
I'm not a girl,
Not yet a woman.
All I need is time,
A moment that is mine,
While I'm in between.

[Verse 2]
I'm not a girl,
There is no need to protect me.
It's time that I
Learn to face up to this on my own.
I've seen so much more than you know now,
So don't tell me to shut my eyes.

[Chorus]

I'm not a girl,
But if you look at me closely,
You will see it my eyes.
This girl will always find
Her way.

I'm not a girl
(I'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe).
Not Yet a woman
(I'm just trying to find the woman in me, yeah).
All I need is time (All I need),
A moment that is mine (That is mine),
While I'm in between.

I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time (All I need),
A moment that is mine,
While I'm in between.

I'm not a girl,
Not yet a woman. 

There are days when I get this feeling deep inside the pit of my stomach.

It goes by many names: "Anguish", "Despair", "Self pity".  

Pick your poison.

I never used to feel this way so why now?

I can get so depressed about nothing really. 

I just feel.. so sad. 

The only odd thing is, this feeling only reveals itself when I'm alone. or have been alone for a long time.

I don't know if everyone's just been busy with life, but I feel like everyone's moving forward.

Moving on in life, with their responsibilities, tasks, assignments, examinations.

Then, I'm sitting there, wondering 'Where has everyone gone?'

I hope this is only temporary.. I hope it goes away.

I've lost count of the number of times I've gone to sleep with a sense of doom looming overhead.

It hasn't been occurred in a while.. but this dark gloomy pit feeling was quick to substitute.

I feel so alone. 

It's funny because it used to be that if I dwell on it, then it'll progress and the wound gets deeper. bloodier.

But now, the feeling just comes whenever it wants. 

We all wear masks, to hide the monstrous atrocities we hold within.

Okay, maybe monstrous is a little of an exaggeration.. but it's ugly. 

Definitely ugly, and painful. 

Oh so very painful.

2011 has been a year with nothing but new experiences, good and the bad.

And it's only just reached June. 

May was a bad month, 

please God, let June be a better one.

Amen.