FACT

Seeking You as a precious jewel

Nothing like the oldies.

Still means so much, after all these years.

When I am down, You pick me up

When I am dry, You fill my cup,

You are my all in all.

You are my freedom, Jesus You're the reason

A beautiful song we sang during Lifegroup tonight.

Here In My Life - by Hillsongs

Where will I be without You here in my life?

I don't know what to do with a love like that

Thank You. 

You always know the words to say.

"Surely We Can Change"- David Crowder Band

And the problem is this
We were bought with a kiss
But the cheek still turned
Even when it wasn't hit

And I don't know
What to do with a love like that
And I don't know
How to be a love like that

When all the love in the world
Is right here among us
And hatred too
And so we must choose
What our hands will do

Where there is pain
Let there be grace
Where there is suffering
Bring serenity
For those afraid
Help them be brave
Where there is misery
Bring expectancy
And surely we can change
Surely we can change
Something

And the problem it seems
Is with you and me
Not the Love who came
To repair everything

Where there is pain
Let us bring grace
Where there is suffering
Bring serenity
For those afraid
Let us be brave
Where there is misery
Let us bring them relief
And surely we can change
Surely we can change
Oh surely we can change
Something

Oh, the world's about to change
The whole world's about to change

one of those moments

 A song that totally depicts my life right now. 

I used to think
I had the answers to everything,
But now I know
Life doesn't always go my way, yeah...
Feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize...

[Chorus:]
I'm not a girl,
Not yet a woman.
All I need is time,
A moment that is mine,
While I'm in between.

[Verse 2]
I'm not a girl,
There is no need to protect me.
It's time that I
Learn to face up to this on my own.
I've seen so much more than you know now,
So don't tell me to shut my eyes.

[Chorus]

I'm not a girl,
But if you look at me closely,
You will see it my eyes.
This girl will always find
Her way.

I'm not a girl
(I'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe).
Not Yet a woman
(I'm just trying to find the woman in me, yeah).
All I need is time (All I need),
A moment that is mine (That is mine),
While I'm in between.

I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time (All I need),
A moment that is mine,
While I'm in between.

I'm not a girl,
Not yet a woman. 

There are days when I get this feeling deep inside the pit of my stomach.

It goes by many names: "Anguish", "Despair", "Self pity".  

Pick your poison.

I never used to feel this way so why now?

I can get so depressed about nothing really. 

I just feel.. so sad. 

The only odd thing is, this feeling only reveals itself when I'm alone. or have been alone for a long time.

I don't know if everyone's just been busy with life, but I feel like everyone's moving forward.

Moving on in life, with their responsibilities, tasks, assignments, examinations.

Then, I'm sitting there, wondering 'Where has everyone gone?'

I hope this is only temporary.. I hope it goes away.

I've lost count of the number of times I've gone to sleep with a sense of doom looming overhead.

It hasn't been occurred in a while.. but this dark gloomy pit feeling was quick to substitute.

I feel so alone. 

It's funny because it used to be that if I dwell on it, then it'll progress and the wound gets deeper. bloodier.

But now, the feeling just comes whenever it wants. 

We all wear masks, to hide the monstrous atrocities we hold within.

Okay, maybe monstrous is a little of an exaggeration.. but it's ugly. 

Definitely ugly, and painful. 

Oh so very painful.

2011 has been a year with nothing but new experiences, good and the bad.

And it's only just reached June. 

May was a bad month, 

please God, let June be a better one.

Amen.